I think that if I ever wanted to kill myself--really, really wanted to--then I would play Russian Roulette.  Because if the gun fired when I pulled the trigger, then that's that.  But if it didn't, if I heard the click but didn't die, well then maybe, just maybe, the feeling of that moment, that split second before I knew if I was going to live or die, maybe that would be worth it.  Maybe it would jump start everything in the way I've sat around my whole life waiting for.

But then, I know it wouldn't work that way.  And I don't see myself ever playing Russian Roulette.

Pity.