Locked Up

I want to just throw thoughts down.  I want to write.  But I don't think I can be coherent right now, so I might just write them.

--> Someone left a comment on one of my posts (which was appreciated)...and for once I don't know who it was.  I'm not sure I want to, although my curiosity begs to differ.  This is for a number of reasons, most of which have nothing to do with blogging or anything rational.
--> I miss my creative writing class.  I don't miss the people in it or the things that were going on in my life at the time, but I miss the class and I miss the teacher.  That's the one time I really wrote anything even remotely resembling fiction.  And I liked a lot of what I wrote.
--> I don't know what to do with myself right now.  There are literal stacks of work lying around me and I just can't bring myself to do it.

Really, I just want to put something down.  Words.  If I could, I'd do something like:

[Insert poignant emotion here]

I mean, technically it works.  Except for the fact that this tells you nothing about any of the emotions I might want to put into that space.  

There are too many thoughts buzzing around my head right now that I can't put into words.  Mostly they're feelings.  I think I need to find new people to talk to.  I know that wasn't related at all.  I hate being alone and I hate being around people.   Always one or the other...if I'm alone, I want company, if I'm with people, I want to be alone.

People are stupid.  We're never happy with what we have.  We always want this or that or something more.  I'm not sure I want to understand why this is the case.  This is a terrible post.  It's even worse than usual.  Am I the only person with a mind that jumps this much?  It's not even when I can't focus, it's just a constant thing.  One minute I'm thinking one thought, the next it's completely unrelated.

I really want to write something meaningful and worthwhile.  I can't come up with anything right now.  I know a few people who actually read this.  If anyone has any suggestions for things they think I could actually write about (preferably well), let me know (remember, I like comments).  I'm going to stop trying to pour thoughts out when clearly they're not coming.  I'm sorry to have wasted your mental capacity.