So Much Adorable In One Tank

The beautiful thing about it all is that we've changed a lot in a year.  Last year, it looks to me as though we were there for each other, to help each other, to make sense of our lives and stop our stupid mistakes.  We saved each other's sorry asses when they needed saving.  We were there because we needed saving.  And we saved each other somehow.

We needed that.  I needed you.  You needed me.  Or maybe we didn't need each other but we both needed somebody, and somehow we were there, as a matter of circumstance, in the right place at the right time.  That's how we got where we are today.  That's what led us to the place we're at now.  The thing is, that's not necessarily what happens next, though.  Because the thing is, we're both getting better.  You are, I am, we are.

So maybe there will be days and weeks and maybe even months when we don't need each other, when we don't need saving.  The thing is...that's not as far off as it seems.  We already have days like that.  We both already have happy days when we don't need to be taken care of in the same way we needed to be a year ago.  The fact remains that I love you no less than I did then, and I want to spend time with you still, be it for the same or different reasons.

I read once that the best kind of love is when your want for someone is greater than your need for them.  Maybe it wasn't that way to begin with.  But it's certainly getting that way if it hasn't hit that point yet.  Because the thing is, I've figured out that I could be just fine without you, I could take care of myself because you have helped me get to that point in my life.  But that doesn't mean that I want to.  I am happier with you, whether I am taking care of you or merely enjoying your company.  And the thing is, there are always going to be things we both need help working through, although they may not come as often or as seriously as they have in the past.

I intend to be there for you, no matter what happens.  If you don't have a single sad day for the rest of your life, I will be there and enjoy your company and your happiness.  If you go through hell and back, I will be there every step of the way helping you and doing anything I can.  Whether you--or we--are hurting or not, I am still going to be there.  I still want to be with you, still want to spend time with you, no matter what.  I don't just love you because we can or have or will save each other.  I love you because I enjoy spending time with you, happy or sad or somewhere in between.  That's good enough for me.