Trusting and Doubting

Trust.  It is important.  You hear of it absolutely everywhere in just about every instance.  It is the foundation of a positive relationship in any sense of the word.  Between two friends, lovers, coworkers.  Even in uneven circumstances such as between parent and child, boss and employee.  Trust is the most important element of it all.  It keeps things together.

When that trust isn't there, problems begin to spring up.  Suddenly (or perhaps not suddenly at all), issues develop in communication and things fall apart.  Sometimes trust is lost over one particular incident, other times it slowly seeps away over bits and pieces here and there, hidden suspicions and unvoiced concerns.  Then one day, that trust something was founded on is no longer there.  And once the foundation is gone, everything starts to fall away.  First slowly then gradually faster and faster until there is nothing left.

Then occasionally, there is doubt.  I don't mean doubt that comes from bits and pieces of suspicions or is built up from mistakes.  I mean the doubt that just appears and eats everything away.  That just hurts.  Because there's no reason for it and you don't want it to be there but it's there.  And it eats away your life and dominates your thoughts and messes up everything you hoped worked so well.

After a while, you come to realize that if you want it to stay together, if you want it to work out, if you want to be happy, sometimes you have to let go.  You have to throw away all of the doubt, let go of everything and just trust that it will work.  Sometimes it won't, sometimes you'll get hurt.  But there are those few rare times when it will pay off, when it will work, when everything clicks.  They happen rarely but they make all of it worthwhile.  All of the pain and panic.  It will all be worth it in the end.