Breathe

Just breathe.  Take deep breaths.  And just do something else.  Anything else.  Whatever it takes to get your mind off of all of this.  This past week has been full of hell.  Every single day, tensions have been riding high for one reason or another and it has been absolute hell.  But in the end, it's alright.  Everything will work out.  It will turn out alright.  Everything will start to make sense.  We just have to give it time.

So because I don't have much more to say, I'll explain what happened yesterday.  We had a blizzard.  Lovely thing that is, complete with power outage and no heat and no internet until later this afternoon.  Any other night, I might love a power outage.  It would be interesting and exciting and full of fun.  To an extent, this one was too.  I spent time with people I don't see that often and parts of the evening helped me to forget about everything.

Yes.  There is a lot on my mind.  Thoughts are flickering back and forth and I'm still fairly tense.  The interesting thing about being this wrapped up in my own issues is that I haven't noticed the hell that this blizzard has brought to the attention of most everyone else.  Yes, I am mildly bothered by the restrictions it has imposed, yes, I would rather everything wasn't this limited.  But somehow, having other things occupying my mind has stopped me from being as distracted and tense as most other people are regarding this. 

To a point, that is nice.  The past few days have been painful, but they have been a blur.  The brain is extraordinarily good at numbing the pain, and that is what mine is doing at present.  I am tense, anxious, waiting.  But everything will be alright.  I know that.  I can still breathe.  I can still function.  I am still looking forward to certain things, even as I am dreading others.  It will be alright.  We will all get through this.  Just breathe.  I promise, it will all be alright.