Today has been odd. It started with the usual fatigue of an early morning, transitioned to utter giddy spontaneity, turned to concerned frustration, and finished (well, thus far at least) with an interesting conversation with someone I haven't often had the opportunity of talking to. That makes for quite an interesting combination of events.
I don't even know how to establish a general theme or mood for today. I mean, most days recently I've been able to determine to be either hopelessly miserable or fairly entertaining or at least a mix of the two. Today has just been...weird. Not even a mix. It's been solid ups and downs all the way through, and I have a feeling it isn't really over yet. Which complicates everything.
And the question of why keeps coming up. Why? Why not? I never have an answer to that. I don't think I ever will. Or if I do, I doubt that I will ever fully understand it. I think I may have hit a point where it doesn't matter anymore to understand life. It doesn't need to make sense to me. All I have to do is try to make the most of it. And that's what I have been trying in several different ways recently. Only time will tell how well that works out.
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