Revelation?

Today has been strange. It all started yesterday, really. I was walking the dog, in the bitter cold of winter, the miserable, biting wind. And I was depressed. I hit rock bottom. I was crying. It was as close to a breakdown as I've gotten in quite some time. I came back miserable, exhausted, defeated, broken.

And that's the mood I woke up in this morning. The dread of having to continue with life, the fear of anything happening, the misery of dealing with everything. I was fully expecting for today to go downhill. Then I had one conversation, one single conversation on a humorous topic full of laughter and entertainment that turned the day around for me.

I don't know how, I don't know why, but I was laughing. And somehow everything got better. Somehow the agony I had been living with faded. I don't know what it was, but it's as if I finally opened my eyes after a nightmare. The world hasn't been fixed, my problems haven't been set straight, but everything is alright.

I can laugh, I can smile. I'm finally alright. After falling to the bottom, it feels as though I have been lifted by humor to the top. I'm still broken, I'm still hurt, I'm still upset, but it doesn't kill me like it did before. Even the head-splitting headache I've had all day hasn't been able to ruin the day. It's incredible. And I don't know what happened, but I'm hoping it stays this way, because I need the change.