Full Corners and Empty Rooms

It's not that I'm in a lull right now or anything.  Lull...is that the right word?  I'm pretty sure it is, but it just doesn't sound right.  I'm just tired and have a headache.  And at those points in my life, my thoughts revert back to loneliness and emptiness and a little bit of depression.  I'm not really unhappy, just feeling a little bit empty.  I don't know why I feel so empty, really it's not so much that I do but that I know I will as soon as I leave.

Or maybe I just won't leave.  I feel like that's part of it--that not knowing where I am going to be in a little while, or what I will be doing at any given point in time.  I'm just tired, and I never know how to act or feel when I'm tired.  Sometimes, when I have enough work, I just feel overwhelmed.  And while I'm not at that overwhelmed stage right now, I get the impression I'm steadily approaching it.  I know it would probably be good for me to go to bed before that happens, though.

Whether I will or not, well...that's another question entirely.  I've never been terribly good about going to bed at an entirely reasonable hour.  I've gotten better about it since a year ago, to be fair, but a large part of it is just that I'm past that particular stage in my life.  I'm rather glad of that.  Silly though it may sound, growing up, getting older, that sort of thing, which I feel like should sometimes not even apply to me at this age, still happens.  It's refreshing.

The human brain can continue producing new neurons throughout life, which is a fairly recent discovery (I'm not entirely sure what the 'recent' bit entails, but it's what I've heard, so I'm sticking with it).  It's nice to know that people can still change even after many, many years of any given thing.  Humans are more flexible than we give them credit for more often than not.  That's generally a good thing, I'd like to think, as much as I lack trust in people myself.

I miss some people right now.  Or maybe it's just the close relationships of a certain sort that I really miss.  It's just tonight.  I know I'll get over it.  But in the meantime, I should really get some rest.  Good night.