Something about tonight made me miss where I used to be. That's not necessarily a bad thing. Part of me wants to say that I'm still adjusting to this, still getting used to it and all that, but I wonder if that hasn't been the case for a little too long for it to be valid anymore. Then again, maybe it just takes me a while. To be fair, that does match my past experiences, this slow adjustment thing. But it doesn't really make me feel better in the moment.
Sometimes it just feels like I picked the wrong place to spend the next couple of years of my life. Part of it agrees with me perfectly, but the large majority of it, the pieces that are the real 'life' of the place, so to speak, just...isn't my thing. And that's not necessarily bad, but I just haven't found that many people in the same situation as me yet. I'm trying to work hard and do interesting and useful things, and it feels like this lack of belonging is just getting in the way, even though it isn't too closely related.
But that's life. It has its ups and downs. So I'm just adjusting to this, slowly, steadily, I think, I hope. I'll figure it out eventually, I'm pretty sure. It's just going to take a bit of time. And, to be fair, even if I don't, I can always go elsewhere. So maybe it won't be ideal, but I'm confident that I can at least figure things out, which is always a good thing.
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