Comparisons

Alright, the title is a bit out of place.  It's entirely fitting given the direction the conversation I'm having is going right now, but it doesn't necessarily fit the blog post particularly well.  Not the one I intend to write, anyway.  But who knows, it may wind up fitting significantly better than I expected.  Anyhow, I'm rambling.  I should probably get to actual content by now. 

Relationships are weird.  That's as good a place to start this as any.  They are, in a sense, a web of fragility.  It's constantly a matter of balance.  You're trying to maintain something that has too many nuances, complexities, and elements to keep track of.  It's not something you can really predict.  To a point, certainly, you may be able to get some idea of a couple's potential for success given their natures, personalities, and previous relationship experiences.  But on the whole, it's impossible to know how it's going to play out.

I wonder if it's possible to get so caught up in trying to make something work that as a result it falls apart.  I know it's possible in conversations.  I've been there, I've seen other people there.  At the same time, a relationship is bigger than that.  And as long as conversation continues, as long as such issues are discussed and worked through, shouldn't it work out?  I don't really know.  At this point I feel like I'm worried about worrying too much about things falling apart.

But I feel safe and comfortable.  For the most part anyway.  The thing that tends to happen when people get too comfortable is that things start falling apart.  I feel that being consciously aware of this and maintaining conversations and openness on the matter should be enough to work through things, at least as a basis.  Everything else has to build on top of it, of course, but willingness, committment, and honesty seem like a good foundation.  That's worked better than anything else I've found thus far, so I guess I'm sticking to it.

Anyhow, I seem to have drifted from whatever I started by saying and I'm too tired to really focus terribly much, so I think I'm going to give up on this for now.  I'm also still exhausted and still sick, so that doesn't make for terribly clear thinking.  Maybe I'll get back to this tomorrow.  Hopefully I'll be more coherent on the subject at some point.  In the meantime, apologies for the low quality.  I really do hope to improve that.