For the most part, I don't really have too much to say. Today has been a fairly uneventful day. I got some work done, but maybe not as much as I had hoped. And yet, it wasn't bad. At least I got something done, at least. That's better than nothing. It's been calm. That's probably the biggest difference from how things have been, and it is a very nice change indeed.
I think I'm finally starting to feel like my life is getting back under some reasonable measure of control. So certainly, everything isn't perfect...really, nothing is. But for once, I'm okay with that. I might finally actually be getting better. I'm not completely fixed yet, and I know that. There are things that constantly come up to alert me of that fact. But I honestly think I'm really getting better.
It took a while. It took a lot of messes and a lot of pain, and none of that is going to just disappear, because it does still come up occasionally. Tonight was rather odd. It was strange in that it was nice but it was bittersweet. And I don't entirely understand it, but the things I do understand are crystal clear, and I am left confused. Somewhere in there, my brain just hit a point past which it wouldn't move...and it's still stuck there, largely. I'll figure it out eventually. Either that or I won't, and it'll be fine either way, really.
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