Long-Awaited Change?

This coming weekend is going to be an interesting one. My friend's boyfriend is coming to visit, and he's apparently bringing one of his friends along too. Of course, my friend took it upon herself to make sure that this turns into a relationship or at least a one-night stand for me, but I rather find that to be wishful thinking. I have nothing against the prospect of a relationship, perhaps more against a one-night stand, because that's just one of those things I don't need right now, but the expectation that that's what will result from a meeting with a stranger is rather unrealistic, in my opinion.

So who knows where this is going to go. It's been rather a while since I've met anybody new, particularly anybody I'd really consider dating. Maybe this is the breath of fresh air I need in my life--in the form of a new friend at least, if nothing more. I think it's time for me to crawl out of my shell and start actually getting to know some more people, rather than hide within the same company I have been hanging out with for the past year.

Actually, the same people have started to wear on me a bit after all this time. Yes, it was a lot of fun getting to know them all, and we've had our share of fun nights, but by now I think that matters have changed to the point where I'm no longer as much a part of it all as I was before. I don't want to offend anyone, but it feels like some of the conversations this group of people has are just so...immature, I guess. Suddenly I find myself uninterested in the conversation taking place, wanting to be elsewhere, and wishing that the ceaseless banter about simple and cute topics would just end. And I don't find the cuteness of it that pleasant by now, either...it's gone from being amusing to just annoying, and some people I just don't want to be associated with at this point.

So I guess that things are changing and my life is taking its course in a different direction. Maybe this coming weekend will be the opportunity I need to get started on that change. Maybe I'll figure more out about myself and my life. And maybe, just maybe, I'll meet a new friend, or somebody else I can have interesting conversations with. I'm a bit mixed as far as nerves and excitement go, because it's been a while since I've met people I want to make a good impression on...so I guess I'll see what happens. Now there's something for me to look forward to through the tough week ahead. Who knows? But whatever happens, it's almost guaranteed to be rather interesting.