Damn It

I still can't work. I guess this is just bothering me too much. I'm not rational anymore. I know I have so many things I should be doing, so many things I can be doing, but I don't want to do a single one of them. This is frustrating. Hell, I can't even write a half-decent post because nothing else comes to mind.

I don't even know anymore. The only things in my mind are irrelevant, random, and just about everything I'm trying to avoid. And perhaps the most ironic part is that I could very well try and confront the issue, but that would lead to the end of something I don't want to end. I can't let myself do that, if only because it would lead me into a downward spiral.

Or perhaps I should say that the downward spiral I'm on already is prolonged even further. I have absolutely no idea how this happened. And it really bothers me that this is affecting me as much as it is. It's so frustrating. I'm not even bothering to reread what I'm writing anymore...I'm just doing this because I should fill the space and the time in trying to avoid anything and everything.