Confusion

Why?
Why not?

Those are probably the two worst questions in existence. They come back to every single action, decision, and event we ever have to deal with. And it never gets easier. Because every single choice we have to make comes down to those two questions. It's like a list of pros and cons. Yes or no? Yes or no? Yes or now?

This sort of weighing of thoughts is what leads us to the events that occur every day. Ironically enough, the why and the why not tend to be factors that we consider after making a given decision, not before. It's what we always come to think about when we may have done something stupid, irrational, foolish.

We never ask these questions proactively, always assess them in retrospect. We try to find justification for our actions and answers to the questions in our minds by asking as we do. This is how we try to figure things out...this is how we try to deal with life and handle consequences. Maybe, just maybe one day we'll figure it out, be able to solidly answer those questions, make some sense of the nonsense that is life.

Or maybe we won't. In the end, it doesn't matter. In the end, life happens, most of the time because of decisions we ourselves make. We suck it up and we deal. That's all. Nothing more, nothing less. In the end, maybe the why or why not make absolutely no difference. The only thing that really does matter is what ends up happening as a result. And we don't find that out by wondering why something happened. We find that out by letting life unfold, by letting things happen to us, and by living to the fullest as much as we can.