Sheer Brilliance

Judge me all you want. I'm happy now. That's all that matters.

That just hit me today. I was sitting here, thinking about life--past, present, future, all that, and it just struck me upside the head in a way. Suddenly it made sense. All of the nonsense, the random words thrown around again and again...none of that matters to me. And it's not even a fact of "nothing matters" right now so much as the fact that it just doesn't affect me. At all.

All of the judgment passed, the lectures given, the rebukes endowed...I don't care. They may be what they will, people may think whatever they want, but I'm not going to let that bother me, or affect me, or change the way I do things. For the first time in a long time, I'm deliberately blocking people's opinions out, not letting them tell me how to live my life, if only in one respect.

And right now, I'm happy. I'm happy with that fact, happy with the way things are right now, happy with who I am at the moment. Yes, I am actually happy for once. And I like that. So just a warning to those passing judgment and being critical of the facts: don't mess with it. So there.