I Don't Know

Suddenly, it just hit me.

I have no idea what's going on. I don't know where I'm going in life. I don't know what I'm doing here, right now or in general. I haven't got the faintest clue of what this is all straining toward or why I'm still bothering. I literally just don't know.

I don't know why I'm trying to do the things I am. I have no real idea of what any of my goals or targets are. I'm absolutely lost as far as having any desires or aspirations at this point. Right now, I'm just trying to get by, to survive. I'm not making any progress or encountering any success. I'm literally just floundering in this ocean of life, trying my best to stay afloat.

Maybe when it hits this point where all the effort in the world only barely keeps you alive and doesn't let you survive, maybe then it's time to find a different way of doing things. But how? How am I supposed to start going somewhere when I have no idea how to get there, where I'm going, or even where I could possibly want to go.

I don't want to be here for the rest of my life.
In every sense of those words.
And that's all I know.

So what happens next? Where do I go from here?
I have absolutely no idea...