Well, things really are changing. Welcome back to existence. These past several days (I won't go so far as to say weeks), have been like a long journey somewhere, a flight...hanging in transit, floating in air, knowing only where you came from and where you are going. And now, now it's over. We have landed.
So here, some form of life starts again. Things are happening. People are going places and making plans. At least I'm not stuck behind in all of this, though. My own plans are taking shape, certain aspects of my life are coming about even faster than I could have expected. So at the very least, I have distractions for the next couple of months.
Of course, it's somewhat difficult to distract myself with any sort of activity from certain thoughts and occurrences. But at least it's something. It's getting certain obligations (of a sort) out of the way and keeping me from excessive violence for at least a space of time. In the background, my mind is still going to be worrying, thinking incessantly over everything that's currently occupying my thoughts. On the whole though, I think this should help at least a bit.
If nothing more, it's going to allow me to count the days that much more steadily, give the time a certain solidity that I will be able to grasp. I think I need that solidity right now, that element of control. While I may not be able to hold power over the time, I will at least have some way to keep track of it. Right now, I have two emails to reply to that I've been putting off for most of the day, so I think I will go do that now, and then continue watching the world blur.
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