And I was actually feeling fine. I was really, seriously feeling fine until I got home. Because of course that's when everything breaks down, falls apart, and ruins the day. Again. So here's to a repeat of yesterday, when nobody can say a word without scowling. Why the hell does this have to happen every single day?
God damn it. I was alright for once. Things were starting to work. And here I am again, with the only reason tears aren't running down my cheeks yet being that I'm not the only person in the room. I can't do this anymore. This just ruined everything. Do you have half an idea that I'm not just upset about what you said but about the fact that you just made my entire world collapse around me?
I'm sorry. Can you not tell that I'm about to cry? Is it not obvious that I'm just saying "okay" because anything else would make me fall to pieces instantly? I wasn't exactly certain what to write today. And right now, I know that I can't write anything. It's taking all my effort to keep from breaking down...again. I'm sorry I can't write anything worthwhile. I'm sorry that I just more or less fail at everything at the moment. I'm sorry.
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