Inside

It's amazing the effect that something small can have on us. Something as simple as a song...merely a weaving of melody and harmony, notes and lyrics, silence and sound. Yet it has the power to bring forth such emotions in us. Some things can literally make us stop dead in our tracks and think, feel, experience. That kind of power is rare in life.

The thing is, that song hasn't lost any of the power it once had over me. It still makes me pause and think, it still has the power to get stuck in my head for hours on end, melody raging through my brain, lyrics stealing into my thoughts. The world outside of me may be filled with everyday noises, shuffles, sounds, and voices. But inside of my mind, there is nothing but music, nothing but a song quite literally sustaining me right now.

It is all I can cling to, the cavern of sound inside my head, the waves of music moving my thoughts one way or the other. I am not paying attention to the world around me, I am indifferent to what happens beyond the stream of lyrics in my mind. Nothing else matters. And I like it when that happens.

It's a way to get away. It's how I survive. If my only sanctuary is the song in my head, then so be it. But I will come back to that sanctuary more often than one would probably guess. That song...still has some sort of power over me that I can't really begin to fathom. It brings out a part of me, if only to myself, that stays hidden for the majority of my life. If only in my mind, it allows me to live. And for 3 minutes and 47 seconds at a time, I can do just that. Maybe that's why it still has that effect on me, the mind-blowing, heart-stopping, breath-taking power that it somehow holds.