Get Away

I need to get out of all of this. 
I need a break. 
Something clearly doesn't work. 
My hands have been shaking all day. 
And I'm fairly certain it's not just sleep-deprivation.

I just need one week. 
One week to myself.
Completely alone.
I need to get away from it all.
I can't keep sitting in front of my computer like this.
I can't keep waiting for something to happen.

Nothing is going to just happen.
It's not about to fall out of the sky.
Things fall together and fall apart.
Everything appears to be doing the latter right now.
Everything.

It doesn't make sense.
None of it.
Not that it ever really did.
Maybe if I care less, it would work more.
Even though it's illogical.
But nothing logical seems to work anyhow.

This is all irrelevant.
It's just more senseless rambling.
That probably shouldn't be written.
Or certainly not posted.
But it's not like I ever take my own advice.

I should just give up on this.
I'm not about to.
Maybe that's good.
Or perhaps it's foolish.
It's definitely foolish.
 
Enough senseless rambling.
I'm done now.
Sorry.