Frustrated

I'm in a good mood.  A rather good mood.  Things have been going well.  As a whole.  But I'm still frustrated.  I'm really frustrated right now.  And I hate that.  God damn it, why doesn't this work?  Why doesn't it make sense?  Perhaps more importantly, why don't I work?  I'm really frustrated and angry with myself right now, and I need to fix this.

I haven't been able to work lately.  I've been unproductive in the period when it is in fact most important for me to get things done.  I don't know why.  Why doesn't it work like the way it did last year?  I don't have much more to do, I'm not dealing with as much nonsense or panic to set me mentally and emotionally off balance as the case is.  So I don't understand.

I hate this.  It's so damn frustrating.  I really hope that something will change, because it has to, because I can't keep falling behind because I don't know how to focus or what to do about myself.  And it sucks.  I don't even know anymore.  The strangest part is...I'm still in a good mood, a pretty damn good mood.  But this is just somewhat frustrating to me right now...apologies for the rant, I'm done now.