One Good Reason

Please. 

Please, just give me one good reason not to.  Today has been hell.  It has been an infinitely worse inferno than I could have imagined possible.  I knew there was a reason I didn't want to be here.  There were a number of reasons.  Unfortunately, I didn't have a choice in the matter.  So here I am, two hours later than I had hoped to be long gone, trying not to cry my eyes out, trying to find one good reason. 

Just one.  And I can't find it.  I know this isn't going to end.  Ever.  It'll just continue on and keep getting worse until it destroys me entirely.  If it hasn't already, that is.  Because if this shell of me sitting here typing this right now isn't destroyed, I don't know what is.  I don't know how to stop this or change this or even survive this anymore.  I don't know if it's already too late.  I think it is.

Stop me.  Please.  I don't want to but I can't anymore.  Don't save me from myself.  Save me from this hell.  Save me from everything that I can't control right now.  I'm begging you.  Please.  I can't do this anymore.  I can't.